I envy those with simpler lives for I believe their hearts ache less. Swords comprised of the chaos I fantasized, bleeds me out of my chest. I sit for a moment, wishing to be you -- until I realize -- simple you are not, demons opposed to chaos is what you choose.
Frequently I picture our life together, and of course, we live happily ever after. As if that is how it actually happens... As if distance will not separate us, As if time will not punish us, As if you shared your feelings of depth, As if I shared mine at all. Frequently I picture you... Continue Reading →
she reached. you grabbed. & i fell when you let me go. ode to the day someone might choose to save me instead.
I held dear the stories you shared, as if they were secrets for only us; But I'm just a visitor in your world, watching your movie next to the crowd.
I have talked myself into you so many times -- sometimes I stop to think where my soul would have wandered if I hadn't.
I think of who I used to be and sadness looms, for the sentimentalism of the past always seems to interfere with the progress we work so hard to make.
Seated on a barstool - 4 minutes going on 6; I hold my breath for if I dare let the air out, all my unspoken words will escape, All the unexpressed ideas will fade, Leaving a residual skeleton of misconstrued expectations. Seated on a barstool - 4 nights going on 6; My lips lose their... Continue Reading →
FEBRUARY 6th, 2018: A constant variable in a moment's equation -- underestimated yet determines all.
Livin' the good life -- A sense of security where none should be granted; a sense of freedom that should not come without guilt. I am ready for the floor to fall, yet I depend on it as I reach for the sky.
JANUARY 16th, 2018: Scattered eyes, scattered minds, racing for a seat. Cityscapes blur, sounds fade; Momentum slows weighted by monotony pervading through the space; Sensations go unnoticed as my daydreams circle once more. Lost in the moment, a connection electrifies through my body. Quickened rhythms beat to the tapping foot of my soul. The energy... Continue Reading →
Call me Jay 